I think you should go to your doctor and tell how your feeling? The professional at school didn't notice but you can't judge them all by that one can you? Being on antidepressants helps so much and being able to talk to someone who knows how to help you, who you know won't judge you, doesn't that sound great?
Yeah it does sound good, but I really dont want my parents to find out what’s happening with me and I dont think that I could go to a therapist without having to tell them.
Clothes sizes are never the same in different shops, hell I've two pairs of the same jeans just in diff colours, there the same size one fits perfect ones too tight!You can't get upset about stuff like that easier said than done i understand but try think rationally, logically it helps too see past the self hatred and think that it's possible their sizes are smaller than another shop. Can u see that??
Yeah I get what you are saying and everything but I hate myself so much and I feel really guilty every time I eat- even if it isn’t much food- and I really wish that I was one of those really skinny girls who can eat anything they want but I’m not and I’m jealous of how perfect everyone else is and I’m just me and I dont want to be me anymore. I’m sorry, now I’m just ranting. Thank you for talking to me tho, it really means a lot to me. xx
Sorry to hear your feelin like way :( Are u in therapy? Talking to a professional cab be really helpful.
No, I’m not. I went to a therapist once a year ago ( everyone at my school had to go) and she said that I as perfectly fine. I didn’t tell her anything about my anxiety issues, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts or eating disorder but she didn’t care enough to see in what condition I was. She is a professional who didn’t see that I’m in such a bad state. I’m glad tho. At least no one else found out and I wasn’t given some pills that wouldn’t do anything but kill my organs.